Have to laugh at myself

I have to make fun of myself when I think about how stressful life can be right now and I think to myself: "Life will be so much easier when I am done with school and work part-time and just have regular life and the new baby." Then I have to remind myself, regular life will be getting NO sleep, still having a messy apartment, and still working twice a week. It sounds like I'm complaining, but it actually helps remind me to be more in the here and now and be grateful for every stage we're in, because it's always going to be crazy, but it's always good along the way. :)

Random Sunday

Went to Region Conference today, I love hearing Pres. Uchtdorf speak

I have a super wiggly baby in my belly and I love him

Celebrated my niece's 2nd birthday today, I just love that little girl so much!

Tanner and I have started randomly singing each other Christmas songs, it's pretty great

This month it was 9 years since I was baptized

I love that it's so cold and windy outside, and so warm and cuddly in our ghetto little apartment

I love my family, they really are the best

We are so very, very blessed. Life is good.

It's me, Tanner Michael Fullmer

Last week I got up in the middle of the night to pee. I'm in the bathroom in the dark, and Tanner walks by the bathroom and scares me. I gasp and he creepily backs up, stares into the bathroom and puts out both arms and tells me, "It's me, Tanner Michael Fullmer. It's me, Tanner Michael Fullmer." I then laugh and ask him if he's even awake, to which he replies that he doesn't know and walks away.
We've been staying really busy as usual, but life is great. I remind myself when I feel overwhelmed how great things are and how much we have been blessed. I had another appointment today, 24 weeks! I can't believe how fast the time is going by, full-time work and school probably contribute to how fast it seems. Sweet baby Eric is doing great, everything looks just perfect! He is measuring a few days small, which they said is not a big deal. He is moving all the time, I love lying there before I go to sleep and feeling him wiggle around. I played some Fleetwood Mac once and put the speaker on my belly and he starting dancing around, he already has good taste in music, we're so proud.
I realized that next month will put me into the their trimester, which I have to admit, made me really nervous. I just feel so unprepared, we haven't really had time yet to think about getting things ready. I'll have a lot to do during the holiday break. I'm so excited to meet him, but nervous for what a huge change this will be in our lives.
Most of my feelings are good. I am amazed at how much I already love this little guy, I feel like I love him more every day. I can't wait to see his personality. I love seeing Tanner get so excited, he doesn't think about it as much as I do, since he doesn't have the reminder of it kicking him all day, but he is starting to get really into it. He loves to feel him move and says goodbye to him every time he leaves, it is so cute. I can't wait to see Tanner hold him. I will try to update more frequently, here is the latest baby bump picture, it's grown a lot since last month!!

Who thought getting kicked could be so much fun?

Seriously. I just started feeling little Eric's kicks and punches on Monday and I am so excited! It is a weird feeling, having something alive in your belly, but so amazing. I can't help but wonder what he's like in there and how much he has grown. I'm guessing he's grown a lot in the last two weeks, or I'm hoping, because my belly is expanding rather rapidly.
My favorite was tonight because Tanner has been sad 'cause he hasn't been able to feel it, but tonight he did! I wish I could have caught a picture of the look on his face, it was so cute. He is so happy he felt it, I love it. He got a huge smile on his face and kissed me. It's starting to feel a lot more real now, I'm realizing that this little guy is really coming, and quick. I'm so excited and a little nervous, because this is going to be a big change for our family. And Tanner says I act like a cranky two-year old when I'm really tired. I'm gonna have to work on that. Something funny he said was during our prayer one night, he said "please bless Nina's womb...that she will keep it secret, keep it safe." I couldn't stop laughing, it was so funny. Another night he was tired and said "please bless Nina's womb...her spare 'oom." If you aren't geeky like us, you won't get these, but they're from Lord of the Rings and Chronicles of Narnia. It still makes me laugh, even now.
This last part is more about my feelings about pregnancy so far, because I want to have a way to remember how I felt. More than anything I am so excited and can't wait to meet him. I want to see his face and look into his eyes and just love him to pieces. I can't believe how much I love him already and we haven't even met yet. I don't want anything bad to happen to him and just sit and think about what it's going to be like all the time. I am a little nervous because I know it's going to be harder than anything I've ever done. It's going to be exhausting and frustrating at times. I worry if I'll be a good mom. I even had a dream before we found out the gender, that we had a little boy, and we got home the day after he was born and I realized I still hadn't even fed him. Then Tanner was sitting by him on the edge of the bed and he rolled off the bed! It was traumatic and silly, I know, but still sad.
I wonder what his little personality is going to be like. I have a feeling he might be a little hyper because both ultrasounds so far they have told us he is more active than most and now I am feeling him move all the time. I worry about having the energy to finish school for two more months when he is first born. I know it's only two months, but I'm worried about having enough time to take care of him and getting homework done.
I feel bad that I have no energy. I think Tanner is tired of hearing about how tired I am. :) He is so great and I couldn't ask for a better hubs. I have these days of feeling great and motivated and I do so much that I wear myself out I think. Then I have days where I'm so tired, just the thought of having more than two things to do in the day makes me almost want to cry. I haven't been sick for a while, so I'm very thankful for that, it makes life much easier and pregnancy a lot more enjoyable. Most of all I'm just so thankful that we have the opportunity to welcome this wonderful little person into our family. I feel so incredibly blessed just that we're having him, that it makes me see even more that the material things don't matter. It really is all about families and I'm so thankful ours is forever.